Can happiness last?

[Rachael Louise]

Part One

I stomped into my bedroom to get changed out of my horrid school uniform. I sat on my bed and looked around my room. Everything was perfect as usual, i always kept it tidy. I walked into my bathroom and stared at myself in the mirror. My face was smooth, not a pimple in sight. My make-up was perfectly applied and my nails had just had a french manicure. Anyone who looked at me would say 'shes soo perfect, nothing goes wrong in her life'. I was the perfect girlfriend, the perfect friend, the perfect person. If any of those people saw me now, they would probably die of shock. Sure, my face was perfect, my uniform clung to me in the right places but inside i'm a wreck. I walked back into my bedroom and took off my shirt. My back and stomach were covered in their usual bruises. I undid the zip at the back of my skirt and let it fall to the floor. My legs didnt have any bruises on them, if they did they would easily be seen and he didnt want that to happen. I sighed and pulled on some clean trousers and a t-shirt and walked downstairs. No-body was home yet, i'd faked being sick at school so they sent me home. I loved silence, it was something i never got to experience alot. Growing up with 4 brothers and 2 very annoying sisters can certainly make you love things like silence. Allan 14, Matt 17, Darren 12, Coby 3, Katie 14 (Allan's twin) and Kim 8. I dont even know how i remember their names never mind their ages. Me, i'm 16 and not allowed to move out of this place until i'm 18 which is unfair when Matt moved out 2 weeks ago. To make everything worse, i've still got to suffer a month more of school.
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"Sciver sciver sciver..." Allan and Coby chanted when they came home from school. "Im sick you freeks!" i said and walked into the kitchen. My stomach was aching again so i thought i should take some paracetamol before it gets worse. I felt someone tugging on my top so i turned around to see who it was. "What is it, Kim?" i said "Can you get me a drink pweasssee??" "Ok ok..." i got her some juice and finally found the paracetamols. I took two and put them back in the cupboard. "Allan? Where's Katie?" i asked him when i realised she wasnt home. "Er...probably at er....her boyfriends house..." he mumbled the last bit but i heard it. I grabbed the phone and called her mobile. "Who is it?!" Katie yelled down the phone. "Dont talk to me like that, get your a*s back here now before i tell mum and da..no...before i tell Matt about you havin...." "Ok ok...please dont tell Rachy..." the name...why did she have to use the name?! "Alright...but only if you get home right now." I said a and hung up. "What is Katie having?" Kim asked from behind me. "Hey, Kim....er...i'll take you to the park now..." Allan to the rescue.... "Yay!" she screamed and ran to get her coat. "Thanks" i mouthed to him, "No problem.." he mouthed back. Me and Allan were the only ones who knew about Katie's...er...'special' relationship between her and her boyfriend, Jack. I tried to imagine the look on Matt's face if he knew. The only picture that came to mind was a volcano erupting.

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It's tres bien!! (thats very good btw... sorry I am just in a frech mood coz I am studying 4 moi french test tml... sad I no but I gotta do it...) Anyway!! It's great beginning!! Plz post more soon!!

[*~*Mi$$ Ch££ky*~*]

Part Two

"Why arnt you ready for school?" my mum said, stood at my door. "I dont feel well...can i stay off today?" i asked in the nicest voice i could manage. "No...you came home early yesterday..you're going to school...if you're still sick, let the teachers send you home." I got up reluctantly and started to dress, i wasnt in the mood to perfect my appearance but if i didnt, people would think something's wrong.
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"Hey Rach." All my friends met me at the school gates, as always. "Hey." I replied and started walking to tutor, my mates following as always.
"Hey babes..." Louis wrapped his arms around me from behind. I feel like im gonna throw up. "Hey sweetie.." i replied back. "Are you comin' round to mine tonight?" he asked. I felt his breath hot on my neck. "Sorry sweetie, i have to go and see Matt.." i lied. I hate lying but the thought of him being near me all night was making my stomach hurt bad. "No your not...your coming to mine.." he whispered in an evil voice that made me shiver. His arms tightened, i should know better than to disagree with him. "Ok Louis...i will." I said reluctantly. "Good, thats my girl.." he said and spun me round. He kissed me roughly and walked away. 'Eww' i thought and quickly opened my bag to get some chewing-gum.
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"Why are you late again?" My history teacher asked when i walked into the classroom 5 minutes late. "Sorry sir, bad period pain..." i lied and held my stomach. He looked embarrased, "o..ok then...er..j..just dont be late again," he stuttered and the class laughed. Lucky for me, Louis was in year twelve. After Year eleven you could leave if you had enough 'credits' if you didnt then you had to stay on in year twelve.
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When school had finished i found my mobile and rang my mum. I said to her that i was staying at my mate Natalie's house. She bought the whole lie. "Nat!" i shouted when i saw Natalie, walking a bit infront of me. She turned around. "Can you do me a favour?" she nodded, "Right, my mum thinks im staying at yours, so if she rings your house can you cover for me?" i bit my lip while she thought about it. "Ok...your going round to Louis' arnt you?" she smiled. "Er..yeah..anyway i gotta go. See ya!" i ran all the way to Louis' place. He got mad if i was late.
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"Hi baby..."he grinned when i rang the doorbell. I smiled but really i felt sick. He was wearing one of his best shirts, which always ment he was after one thing. He showed me in and we walked up into his bedroom. He turned his Blink 182 album on and went and sneaked some drinks upstairs. I smelt my drink and instantly found out it was vodka. I sipped some and put the glass down on the side-table. He grinned and put his glass down too, but his was half-empty. I stared at him as he walked towards me. I dodged to the side and pretended i was looking at his cd's. He grabbed me and punched me in my stomach. I doubled over in pain. He smiled and threw me onto his bed. I whimpered but he just kept smiling whilst un-doing my shirt and skirt. He took off his own clothes and began peeling off my underwear. I went limp as his breathing became faster. No point in resisting, it always hurt more when i did...
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"Wake up baby girl...." i heard him whisper. I was already awake, i never slept. I never can sleep when i stay here. I turned around and saw him smiling at me. He didnt show any remorse or guilt. "I love you..." he said and layed back on top of me. He kissed me and began stroking my body in places i didnt want him to touch. He groaned as he pushed himself into me strongly.I wasnt expecting this so i yelped and began squirming around but it was no use he just kept pushing into me, harder each time. I gave up when i felt him come powerfully inside me.
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"God, you look like death.." Matt said when i walked back inside my house. "Thanks...why are you here anyway?" i muttered. I didnt have any strength to speak any louder. Louis had made sure of that. "Mum has to go to Canada to look after Aunt Sarah. She said i had to stay here to look after you guys. She also said James and Charlie could stay too.." he said grinning at the last thing he said. "Well...its nice to know. She cant even be bothered to tell me to my face can she?" i complained and sat next to Matt. I always feel safe near him. I dont know why i dont tell him about what Louis does to me. If Matt knew he'd probably go and kill him. Like i'd care if he was dead.
Before Louis my life was great! I never stopped smiling, i was always happy. But i soon learnt, when Louis came into my life, happiness cant last. Its impossible.

[*~*Mi$$ Ch££ky*~*]

Part Three

I'd been looking for Katie all day. Matt's going mad 'cause he doesnt know where she is. 'She might be in the park...' i thought. I walked the half/mile it was to get there and of course, it was raining. So i got nice and soaked. I smiled, she was sat on one of benches. "Hey Katty," i said. She looked up and i could see all her mascara running down her cheeks. "Whats up?" "Jack broke up with me," Katie said and cried even more. "Aww....Kitkat..." i said and hugged her. "He was a jerk anyway....you can do way better than him." I tried to comfort her but it was no good. She just kept on crying. Allan was the one who could normally calm her down. "Katie? We better get home." She nodded and we walked in silence, back home.
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"Katie! Where have you been?" Matt yelled as soon as we got through the door. "Not now Matt," i yelled back and pushed past him.
"So you finally found her...whats wrong?" Allan said, walking into Katie's room. "Jack.." was the only word she could say before she started crying again. He instantly walked over and sat next to her. I smiled and stood up.
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"Where was she?" Charlie asked. Me, Matt, Charlie and James were all sat in the front room. "The park...i swear im gonna kill Jack.." i mumbled the last bit but unfortunatly they still heard. "Why? Whats he done?" Matt said rather quickly. "He...nevermind it doesnt matter." "Yes it does! Tell me or i'll go and ask Katie instead." Great, that was the last thing she needed, getting quizzed by Matt. "Fine! He broke up with her because..." i paused. Katie had told me why when we were walking back. Matt was gonna go mad. "He said he wasnt gettin' enough off her," i said and covered my ears. "WHAT?" And the volcano has erupted. " Enough of what..." he said in a tell-me-and-ill-kill-him voice. "Guess Matt, it doesnt take a genius to work it out..." "Im gonna kill him..."he said and ran for the door. James got their first and blocked the doorway, while Charlie had to rugby tackle Matt to the floor. "Charlie get off me..." he mumbled, trying to get free. "Not a chance.." Charlie smiled and sat on Matt. Now he couldnt move at all. I looked over at James, he was locking the door. Mum's really paranoid so we have 3 bolts and 2 keyholes. James locked all these and hid the two keys in different places. He saw me staring and winked. I blushed and turned back to Matt. "Last time i checked, murder was illegal..." i said to him, who despite his best efforts could not move Charlie. "Fine.." he gave in and Charlie stood up slowly, ready to restrain him again if he had too. Matt just walked back over to the sofa and sat down. I grinned, it was funny to see Matt in a strop. I noticed James was staring at me so i walked into the kitchen. 'Im the one thats paranoid, James cant like me...can he?' i thought while putting the kettle on. "You guys want some tea?" i shouted. "Yeah..." i heard them all say. Guys...too lazy to get off their ar*es.
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Ring ring....ring ring.... "O god, ill get the phone dont worry!" i yelled. Everyone was sat in the front room, watching a movie. "Hello?" i said. "Hey baby....you comin' over tonight?" My stomach did a back-flip. "Sorry i cant, Matt and his mates are here..." i explained quickly and put the phone down. I stepped away from it and went to sit back down. Next to James. Kim was in bed so we were watching Terminator 3, movies like that scare her.
"Who was on the phone?" Matt asked. "Oh..er..." i stuttered trying to think of an answer. "Louis.." i finally said and Matt grinned. He was ok with me dating Louis. Which was strange because i wasnt ok with it. "What did he want?" Katie said, smiling. She'd finally stopped crying about 3 hours ago. I glared at her, "He w.." the phone rang again. I sighed and picked it up. "Its not nice to hang up on someone you know.." Louis breathed into the phone. "Its also not nice to rape someone over and over..." i said a little to loud and slammed the phone down. "What was that Rachael?" Matt glared at me, i noticed everyone else was staring at me too. "Nothing." I said quickly and tried to ignor the staring.

[*~*Mi$$ Ch££ky*~*]

Part Four

'Oh no' i thought as soon as i woke up. Today's school but theres no way i can ever go. Louis is gonna kill me as soon as he sees me. I know i cant avoid him forever but i can try. "Rachael! You have to get up now! School!" David shouted through the door. I heard his footsteps grow fainter as he ran downstairs. I slowly got up, threw my uniform on and ran straight into the kitchen. I picked up a glass and saw my hand was shaking. 'No. Stop it. He cant control your life'. I got some water and slowly walked into the front room. Matt, David, Charlie and James were sat talking about something. I slowly sat down and sipped my water. "You look bad.." David said, he was the first one to actually noticed i was in the room. "No kiddin?" i said, a hint of scarcasm in my voice. I tried to stand but as soon as i did, i fell sideways. "Woah.." Matt said as he caught me. "Theres no way your goin out today.." he mumbled and helped me to sit back down. I didnt say anything, Matt had hit one of the bruises on my stomach. It was hurting like hell. I didnt think and i lifted my top up. "What the heck..." Charlie said. 'Oh God! How stupid can i be?!' i shouted at myself for doing that. I quickly pulled my top back down. They were staring at me with looks of horror. "I think you better explain Rachy..." "Actually, i dont have to explain it to you, or anyone else!" i shouted and stumbled upstairs. I finally reached my bedroom when someone shouted me. I turned around. Matt was stood there looking really confused. I sighed and slid down the wall until i was sitting on the floor. He looked at me for a second before sitting next to me. He wrapped his arms around me and i completely broke down.
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After what seemed like forever, Matt picked me up (which was easy because of all the weight i had lost) and put me down on my bed. He stared at my stomach before pulling my shirt up slightly. He sighed and walked out of the room. Five minutes later he walked back in with an ice pack. He placed it on my stomach. I gasped because it was soo cold. "It'll numb it for a while and the swelling should go down a bit," he mumbled and pointed to the ice pack. I smiled and layed my he*d back on my pillow.
I must have fallen asleep because its dark outside. I looked to my side and saw Matt there, snoring slightly. He had one arm around me. I smiled and shut my eyes.

[*~*Mi$$ Ch££ky*~*]

Part Five

I instantly woke up and began screaming. I sat up and tried to compose myself. I sighed, another nightmare. He had been raping me again, and i could feel everything. The way he stroked my skin as i tried to fight him off. The way he stayed calm the whole time, smiling at my pain. The thought made my skin quiver. I swung my legs over the side of my bed and shakily stood up, only to fall back on my bed again. I groaned in frustration and tried again to stand. This time i succeeded. I walked into the bathroom and locked the door. I stripped my pjama's off me and stepped in the shower, trying to get rid of the shame that surrounded me. Why do i feel ashamed? He was the one who violated me. He was the one who used me as some sort of sex-slave, threatening to hurt me if i didnt obey him. I got out of the shower and wrapped a clean, white towel around myself. I sat on the edge of the bath for ages, trying to think of a way out of this mess. I looked up at the medicine cabinet and stood up. I opened the cabinet door and saw a loads of all different types of tablets staring back at me. It was as though they were saying, I'll end your problems. I took out some extra strong painkillers that were always kept in there. I opened the lid and stared at the tablets inside. There was about 50 left inside. I closed the cabinet door and sat back down, holding the painkillers in one hand. Was my life so bad i had to take the 'easy' way out? Who would look after my family? Matt wouldnt want to be held back by a bunch of kids. Mum wouldnt cope on her own, that was a fact. I sighed, what to do?
I walked out of the bathroom and quickly got changed. I tip-toed downstairs, i could hear chatter coming from the kitchen. "You cant force her to tell you whats wrong, Matt." Charlie said. "Yeah mate, hes right," James agreed. I heard Matt sigh, "Why wont she tell me, i only want to help." I heard a scraping sound, he must have pulled out a chair to sit on. "We know that....but she doesnt," Charlie said. I ran back upstairs, not bothering to be quiet. 'Oh no....what have i done?'

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